From Darkness Into the Light Now I Know I've Got The Right Cards

Katherine - Östersund, Sweden

As far back as I can remember I always believed in God. Even as a child I knew that life didn't happen just by chance.

When I grew older I noticed that there was a difference between the Bible and the life Jesus lived, and the church today. Eventually, I came to a point when I decided that religion wasn't for me anymore – I thought it is all a big farce and God doesn't exist, otherwise he would have answered my prayers a long time ago. I decided to "enjoy" life from now on and said to God "God, as you don't exist anyway I've decided not to serve You from now on", I don't know what had come over me that moment to utter a statement like this.

My family is not religious at all. The only time people would see us in church would be for the traditional Christmas service, once a year. Like any other average middle class family I was living in a nice terraced house in a nice suburb surrounded by nice people... and utterly bored and frustrated because nobody could give me an answer to all the many questions I had. Such as: Why do I live?, Will I come back as a spirit haunting people or as a different person in a different time period?, What will happen when I die? etc. I remember my mum telling me that when my grandmother died it was as if her spirit had flown out of the window towards heaven and there was no presence of her in the room anymore, just a shell.

In the meantime without me really noticing my life changed. I started to dress in dark clothes like a Goth, and listened a lot to Indie/punk music.

I also acquired several books on the subject of astrology as well as predicting the future through palm reading and cards. While it took me usually a few days to learn poems off by heart or to study before a test at school, once I had read one of these astrology books I would remember everything straight away, which was kind of spooky.
Usually people just read their horoscopes for entertainment and have a good laugh. Once I started "believing" in all this the weirdest things happened. Similar things happened when I used Tarot cards.

As I didn't believe in the existence of demons, let alone Satan, I couldn't explain what "force" had taken over my life. On the other hand, I was so bored with my life that I didn't want to give up my exciting secret and most of the day I would listen to a lot of Indie and Punk music.

I was always very picky to what I was listening to, one day I listened to a song called "My Soul is burning". I thought to myself how can my soul be burning as we will die anyway and the soul goes back to God to be dead forever. But somehow I couldn't get the tune out of my head, in another song somebody sang that there will be a judgment day and only one in four will make it to heaven, I was bewildered to say the least (see LUKE 8:5-15).

During this period I went clubbing with my friends, sometimes there would be a laser show display whilst people were dancing, first it looked funny as everyone looked like a puppet on a string but later on I thought that's exactly what this life is all about i.e. I am a puppet on a string and someone else makes me move the way that they want me to.

Luckily, even though I was through with God he wasn't through with me! I was then trying to shake off "the presence of evil" in my life and turn to God but I couldn't.

A few months later I met an old friend who had become a Christian in the meantime. She answered all my questions with scriptures from the Bible which really impressed me. While she was reading Revelation chapter 21 I felt the power of God's presence and saw a vision of this and knew instantly that this is the truth that I have been longing to hear for so long.

I then decided to get my life right with God as the Bible commands in ACTS 2:38 and got baptised by FULL IMMERSION and experienced the INFILLING OF THE HOLY SPIRIT. After this experience I felt completely freed from those "strongholds in my life", the presence of evil was completely gone.

I now fully know that ONLY the blood of Jesus can free you from all bondage and God only knows where my life would be today if I hadn't made this decision to give my life with Him and follow Him.

Praise the Lord.

Katherine